Stella Inez came into our lives on 5/17/10 at 9:14am. She is my pride and joy. I found out I was pregnant in Sept 09. It was a rough nine months. I swear I had every symptom the books said I would have. We found out she was a girl on January. It was the most amazing thing. I have three nephews and I was sure we were having a boy. It just fit everything. When they told me I was having a baby girl it took forever to sink it. We ended up having a 3d ultrasound in February where they confirmed she was going to be a little girl, and at that point I think it finally started to sink in.
On the early morning of May 17th at about 12:30am I woke up to having some cramping in my lower abdomen area. I had these cramps before so I just laid there. After awhile I started to just time them in my head and at about 1:30am I figured i should maybe get a watch. I moved into the other room so I didn't wake me husband up and started to time them. They where consistent to a point. My husband came looking for me about 2am, he convinced me to call the doctor. I had a false alarm two week prior so I really didn't want to call the doctor and be "one of those women" who think every time she has a cramp shes in labor. So I called the Labor Delivery instead to talk to a nurse, She suggested I come in to be put on a monitor. So around 2:30, we headed for the hospital.
By 4am they still were not sure if they where keeping me or not, so I had Brian call my mom just to let them know what was going on. Then I called into work considering Ileave for work at 5am and the nurse said I might be there a bit longer. well 5am rolled around Brian called my mom with the updates, there wasn't really any.. Well I had just went to the potty I came back and all a sudden felt this gush of water. I thought I had peed myself ,not understanding because I just had gone to the bathroom. The nurse came in I explained to her what happened and yup by 5:10am my water had broken. Brian went back out and called my mom back, and his mom. I was not leaving the hospital.....
By then things went by pretty fast. By 7am I had an epidural. At 9am I started to tell my mom how I could start feeling the contractions again and how I felt a huge urge to push. At 7am I had only been dilated to 4cm. So my mom went and got the nurse, she came in to check me and looked at me and said your complete. I was so confused!! I really did not think I was going to have the baby so fast. The nurses all rushed around since they had nothing ready at all, the doctor was called and 6 pushes later by 9:14am Stella Inez Nulle was born.. I couldn't take my eyes off her. She was the most precious, and beautiful thing I had ever seen in my life.
Even more I couldn't wrap my mind around the the fact that my husband Brian and I had created her. Giving birth was the most amazing thing in the world!
Stella is now almost a month old. She is smiling and sometimes even laughing. I can not believe how much she has grown. At birth she was 6lbs, 18 inches long. Now almost a month old she is about 8lbs and almost 20 inches long. She was so tiny when she was born that my mother in law stopped at walmart to get preemie sleepers and diapers for us!
I can't even remember what life was like before she came along. well minus the fact I knew I got a full night sleep!
It has been rough I have to admit, I knew being a mom was hard but never imagined it to be this hard. There have been certain points right now i have felt that i have been dealing with a little postpartum depression. I would never hurt her or myself, but my husband and I have been dealing with a lot of stress. He has been laid off since January of this year, and with me out on maternity leave our money situation has become even worse and it is very stressful. I am hoping to get my 12 weeks off from work, but its looking like I might only get 8 weeks. I dread that moment.....
As for now I am enjoying my time with my Little one that I had to wait so long to meet. You truely do not understand the love until you have it.
